I'm taking leave of absence for at least a month, and frankly I don't know if I want to come back. I'm completely jaded with what's supposed to be going on here and I think it's a complete crock of shit.
Why? 5 years ago, I came here because I had no friends and people understood that I just wanted a place to have fun, and for a while I've had that. I've spent 3 years trying to make TRP and TNB a slightly friendlier place for people to come and RP and not have to have such a fucking stressful time, but I can't remember the last time I've ever had that. Now all I do is damage control for a dying and bitter community that seems to think I'm one of the worst things that happened to it. I can't defend my friends because it's considered bias, and I can't defend myself because it's considered admin abuse, and with enough BACKSPACE, anything I say can be made to look like the devil's words.
When I've gotten to the point where all of my time is spent having to justify myself in bans and discipline, I know I've lost whatever happiness I had at TNB, and realized I'm just as pathetic as I was when I started. Reading Toast's thread gave me an epiphany that I sorely needed.
I can no longer justify my emotional well-being and my academic performance in the hopes I'll improve TNB at all, because I don't think it will, and quite a few players are not making it any easier. So if you wanted me gone, go celebrate because I am for now.
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Edit: For TRPers, I'll continue helping the server get back up, but we'll see how things go.
Keefe: I'll see you in our shared frozen wasteland one day.